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i wished i didn't think of blogging only when I have extreme feelings but oh well.
so, i didn't get into EY.. I must say i kinda expected it with all the things going wrong on that day but I guess when I did actually get a call, i didn't expect that it was to reject me so I guess that made it worse. It's kinda shitty cos when you thought finally things are taking a turn to be better it just ends up like that, like for the first time, I'm actually good enough to get something i want. And probably cos I got my hopes up with everyone telling me that it will be okay (friends, i'm not blaming you in ANY way i know you guys were just being supportive and i am truly thankful). I just hate this kinda situations cos you can't wallow in self-pity cos it gets tiring on your friends and makes you feel shittier, but you can't blame anyone else cos it really is just your own fault. So the only thing you can do is try to convince yourself that it will be okay and wait for the feeling to pass.
well, that aside, school has been the ultimate bitch with all the assignments/quizes/presentations. I kinda hate this sem cos of the mods, fortunately the teachers are generally alright so that makes things somewhat better. Can't wait for the next 2 weeks to pass! Thank god for my smurfy friends who make going to school less of a pain in the ass. Plus my delinquent friends who are pain in the asses but bring much joy to my life. :)
Another anniversary and valentine's day! I'm truly disappointed with myself cos I not only did not finish the calendar from last year, i also didn't finish the cross stitch this year. Seriously. Can you imagine by the time I'm 30! I'll probably have to spend 1 year trying to finish all the presents I owe him. Haha.. this year's anniversary present has been really special to me, and it has gotta be one of the best ever. I got a handmade calendar from dear in an attempt to make fun of me and I really really love it. Sometimes I take it out and look at it, and what we have gone through. I know this might change since I'm still young and fickle at all, but right now, I really do see a future; i can see breakfasts together before heading off to work talking about absolutely meaningless stuff, I can see us bickering over retarded things and having retarded conversations and laughing at retarded stuff and trying to make each other look retarded, i can imagine coming to a home with you in it, talking about our day and with you either making jokes of what I'm complaining about in an attempt to lighten the mood or give me some totally logical lecture that pisses me off to the max, then we spend a while being pissed with each other so we'll probably stomp around a little and I will secretly hope you dun punch me but then I realize oh you're in the gym alr! Haha okay I know you can't decide if what I'm saying now is good cos I'm confident of us or that i'm just plain shooting you! Haha..
Alright, I've gotta get ready for another day of battle. I'll try to update again, soon I hope!
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